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Tuesday, May 29, 2012

LOST



She believed its just another nightmare, someone would soon wake her up and she would start living her dream again.
The place symbolized hell, damaged roof, dirty walls, dusty window panes, and she had found her place in the lonely corner amidst the chattering rats and lizards, a lifeless body , curled in solitude.

                                                    

This wasn't the way she wanted her life to be. Rather Life was never kind towards her. Born to unknown parents, she spent her life worse than any orphan could imagine life to be.

Childhood never seemed pleasant, since It reminded her of the darkest phase of her life. What not did she do to earn her living, being a domestic help never let her escape the merciless men ,her  independence was always  mistaken as her helplessness. Still she survived.

She believed her life had a meaning, it had its own purpose, a messiah is somewhere soon to come to erase her sorrows and let her live peacefully.Like every other girl wished, she waited for the miracle in her life.

She waited for the care and protection of the loved one for whom she would be not just a take for granted orphan girl, but someone who could care and cuddle her like a child.

                                                 
And then it rained, love, happiness, joy and what not she wished for her. she believed to be the happiest and most fortunate girl on earth.For he promised her everything. Love seemed boundless, as if all her pain had succumbed to this most beautiful feeling.She felt everything incomplete without him. She lived her life in his promises and words .  He was soon the world for her. Not just a messiah, he was her life

He promised her all joys of life. He promised to make life heaven for her, He asked her to come away with him. He had a different world waiting for her.And then his promises melted away her independence, her loneliness, her helplessness. ..and she blindly believed him. .For she was in love with her messiah.                                                                                                                                                               

    

She couldn't believe the dream that she was living now  . The night seemed long. She could feel the butterflies, she couldn't hide blushing, she was tired, for she never felt it before.

It was always her dream to wake lying across his chest with his arms around her, It was very natural and beautiful in her dreams, but now at the moment as she waited for him, his single breath tired her.

But then Fate had different plans . It wasn't him , but a merciless, cruel devil.
It wasn't  caressing,  It was forced.
It wasn't  love, It was the defeat,
It wasn't pleasure ,but screams and cries.

She was raped.

 Or

she was SOLD

He wasn't messiah..his promises seemed perfect antidotes to her Fate.

That wasn't her dreamland. neither the heaven he promised, It was just another Brothel,which destroyed the dreams of many a souls like hers.

They weren't souls , just reusable bodies, or commodities that satisfied customers.

and then she was a victim to another case of women trafficking


 


Monday, May 28, 2012

Mumbai(KYR)a!







Now , This would be awesome imagining summer with Kyra.


Me: Oye wait! where are you going without the protection?!



 :  Protection? was I supposed to bring my bullet proof jackets..?!


               

  Me: I am ain't talking about the terror we mumbaikars experience, philal its the criminal there ,                  over the sky..He wont let you stay the same till monsoons babes, so take out your scarf,                        wrap you face!




:  I have my protection on dear, and hes not the culprit , Its you! Not the scarf, It should be       the sun Expert!

http://static.violetbag.com/8689-thickbox/lakmesun-expert-fairness-uv-lotion-spf-30-pa-50-ml.jpg



Me: Sun expert?! LOL.. Its Mumbai,,heat goes to 50s here, and above that humidity leads the game, Kyra, need my scarf?!



: No,Lets move..I m in,Lets explore your city, and bet you my sun expert will defeat your scarf!



Me: after few minutes , you would feel the heat, and don't blame me if you get tanned..Summers of mumbai are the best tanning agents



Me :abe ruk?! open hairs?! you are kidding me,, no scarf, no sunglasses and yeah all hairs in air,, this is something that will leave me repenting all summer




: , Summer is to live,, no matter if its the mumbai sun or any other place under the sun. how can you just allow a star to grab away your freedom.


Me :Freedom is fine, but not when my skin is tanned, I dont want to end up applying mulatani muti all day ..or frequent clean ups at the parlour.




: they are all fine, but not until you have your face left to workout on it.. remove your scarf and find it for yourself..You are fierce red at your face,,with all those sweat and dirt,, is this what you mean by protection from summer in mumbai?!

Me: Its not the heat , Its the humidity.


: then its not the sun, Its your ignorance for your skin..! scarfs and glasses don't work,,they dont work on sun protection factor, but experts do..they have it against the UVs, spots,ageing..

Me:Oh , then he looks like?!







Hot Sun! Royalty Free Stock Vector Art Illustration


Me:  I guess he needs the sun expert too!
     It was always my dream to live a care free summer, against the scorching heat,without fearing sunburns, tanning, and dullness




:    So what ,have it now, spend the day, hangout in the heat, rest sun expert will take care .Beaches, Cliffs, seaside and what not! Explore the nature .


Me: Imagine me exploring girgaon beach,,or who would love to spend an scorching afternoon at the marine lines.



: you can tune into your headphones at the seaside or have a fun volley with the friends..all that you need is a sun expert and a young heart! sometimes you dont have to go away  searching places to spend summers,, the besties in your city is all enough!


This was a  post written for Lakme Indiblogger contest!
 I Love Lakme



Sunday, May 13, 2012

And Finally You are a MOther




Its your Birth that gave life to the mother in me, and then Life changed completely.
My Priorities changed, tastes changed, lookout changed.
And then with every step of your growth I found new reasons to live.

Life as a mother began with the sleepless nights I spent wiping your tears, changing your diapers .


It wasn't as easy as your first illness, your first step, your first word , your first song , all of which still remain afresh in my memories

The helpless look at the gate on your first day at school.. mom take me back..pls
The worried look at the clinic when doctor asked you about the pain ..mom please explain it to him
The results of your first ever sports day..mom ..Look I got a medal




And then while you complained about the school bully, stinking dance partner, uncomfortable bus seats.
All your complaints first reached me, right from the loose hair clips to damaged bicycle.

And then you  grew up. I could see my baby grow into a princess as you dressed up at the mirror, and asked my help to chose among your dresses.

The times you had tried helping me at the kitchen and the landed yourself in trouble.
The taste of the first coffee that you made for me defeats even the best ones I had in my life.

And slowly you grew up..

Barbies on your wall changed to Posters  of guys dressed freaky with those guitars and piercings
Love stories replaced comics
and you no more called mommy..It was just the starting three alphabets ,MOM.

You chose your dresses yourself, Had this I dont care this Mommy shit attitude on your face while I tried explaining situations to you.

All that existed between us was just Generation Gap



I started missing my mother by then..
for then was the time while I honestly wished to apologize to my mom for my mistake in Past.

I wished you explained It to me, while you spend hours on the phone at night,
And then I realized My Princess was already a Queen for someone
All that you said was ," Mom , You gotta tell this to Dad. you will have to set everything right"

For I had switched several roles in my life for your sake, as a nurse, as teacher, as a best friend , as a chef, as a maid, as a critic. and what not !

And as today you sent me this Good news ,as my phone screen flashed this message,
'Mom I am pregnant',,

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO YOU TOO






Thursday, May 10, 2012

The BLog Resolution




Indeed blogging is the best thing ever happened to me in life.Though sometimes I feel very guilty towards my very  less frequent  updates on my Blog. Blame it on my laziness or tonnes of assignments and classes I have to attend in this final  year of graduation,, all I know is  that I have been ignoring my blog a lot.
I suddenly realized as I my phone reminded me to delete excess notes that have piled up in it. I guess its high time to upload them on my blog rather than scrambling those random thoughts in the phone memory.

Not a single day in my life exists without me repenting over my ignorance to my blog. Its just the typing part that I am lazy at..Other wise blogosphere is my favorite place..All that I love is going through the updates of my fellow bloggers..some of whom I admire a lot!

Most of the days I promise myself that at least today one story from my phone is gonna be over the blog..enough of scribbling them in notebooks and updating on my phone...For that was all I did before I was into blogging
The audience of  my stories never went beyond friends and parents and then blogging exposed me to a different world.
I discovered that I had a long way to explore..I discovered many a blogofriends ,some sincerely appreciated me..some dutifully corrected me.I discovered many a weakness and strength in my writing, flaws in my language, gifted me some of the best friendships I cherish and blogosphere is still the best place I love the most

So thought of having a new resolution..though its not the resolution time of the year..Did someone say that resolutions can happen only at new years eve? Oh then that's too long for me to make this resolution..I am gonna try my level best to update my blog frequently at least to free off the memory on my phone.. I wish this resolution doesn't end up like my every other resolutions!

Love you blogosphere..n all my blog buddies!
n yeah..I wont disappoint you my blog!