Monday, December 8, 2014

15 Things to my 15 Year old self

 I often wish if only I could grab the time that I missed. Perhaps go back to the Good old days and may be rectify or not commit certain mistakes, If ever I had a chance to tell my Fifteen year old self , 'Please stop there! you aint doing that any more ' , then perhaps it would go like this

1.No Sweet heart , scoring below 90 does not mean shame. In fact you will always be a 60 something student in your college. And FYI you are going to flunk in your final year end semester exam.And the feeling of experiencing success after a failure is much more sweeter.

2.Please learn to chew your food. Else it  is going to make you fat .

3.Stop missing your old school crush, he is going to turn bald in few years and you are going to feel very happy.

4.Respect your Teachers. Stop complaining. Managers are more terrible.

5. Please do not stop attending dance classes out of laziness. Continue it. Pursue you hobby. It relieves you in times of stress

6 . Pursue your passion, Nurture it. Write more. Happiness is in reading your poems aloud and not in revising your mark sheets.

7.Read, Read more books.Its okay even if you  are hiding those novels behind your English workbook during School

8. No, telling lies is not a sin. You can lie to your parents and teachers. Eventually You will.

9. Participate in School Sports. Do not think you cant, and loosing games is Okay, No one is going to remember which team won the dodge ball. But they are definitely going to recollect and relate to the teammates and memories.

10.Please do not encourage your school best friend to date that Elder guy in High School. He is going to ditch her badly. And school is not the time to get into relationships. Spare your firsts. And I am sure you are happy you did.

11.It is okay to have more than one crush and Many eye candies. Everyone does. You are not a bad girl.

12.Wear skirts and shorts more often, you are going to miss them.

13.Experiment. Do not hesitate to try that new hairstyle. It is now or never.

14.Make Mistakes. Fight, cry, dance, Sing Aloud ,. express your emotions. Do not Control, because YOU ARE A GIRL.

15.  Family is forever. Spend more time with your sibling. He loves you too.

And, Live your childhood. You are going to miss this later.

I happened to come across this beautiful video , It does trigger you to go back in the timeline.

Sunday, November 9, 2014


The sun was yet to rise, but she was already collecting the bed sheets to be washed. This time she could not be excused for not washing them. She Took care not to touch the curtains as she crossed the passage to the bathroom. There was a door mat that could obstruct her from entering the bathroom However she managed to jump over it and succeeded in entering bathroom without touching them .She unturned the red plastic bucket kept in the dark corner and a steel mug kept beneath it.  Cold water flew in through the taps and being a winter morning, she could feel the chill in her spine. All her life she has hated to bath in cold water in winters. Again she tried hard to Pull the towel out of the bathroom wardrobe without touching others Towel or underclothes.

4.00 am.

Walking through the woods, beating the harsh winter with water dripping through her just washed hair, without a sweater or woolen was indeed a tough task. She heard some chants of Lord Ayappa far away , indicating that some of the pilgrims were coming that way. She walked silently trying her best not to be noticed by them. And then at a secluded spot, she disposed the plastic cover into the pit, and  covered it with mud.
Filled with guilt and negative thoughts all over her mind, She rushed back home.
Fortunately her parents did not wake up. She walked through the pavement as if she was soiled and touching the walls or curtains would soil them too.  It dreaded her to rinse the bed sheets and dry them at the window grill. Wet bed sheets were so heavy. This is when she thanks the inventor of washing attaching for attaching a dryer component to it.

7.00 am

She passed three hours filled with boredom staring at a wall. She sat there silently in the corner with her legs folded and chin stationed on her knees. Only then she smiled, when her mother entered her room with the morning coffee.
Her mother placed the steel glass on the floor and moved away. Lakshmi lifted it with utmost care not to spill the tea, filling the glass to its brim.

“Make sure you wash it in the bath room and keep it beside the kitchen door. Do not enter Kitchen”
Her mother warned and moved to the next room, “And yes don’t touch the curtains”.

Lakshmi frowned. She loathed this part of the year, When her Dad is on his 45 days fast to his visit to Sabarimala and the seven days during that month she is menstruating. She is devoid of life. She cursed her principal for declaring a Study leave in this month, Else she could have spent the entire day in the college. She wouldn’t have to take care not to touch curtains, or not to enter living room, dining hall or the kitchen, or not be treated as an untouchable at her home.

This is the only time of the year; she hated herself for being a WOMAN